PRAYER REQUESTS: I've never felt this low in my entire life. I'm scared and alone with no one to turn to.
  • ImperfectHumanImperfectHuman January 19

    I have been struggling with porn and masturbation for the past 5 years. I was in my mid teen years when it started and being part of a true Christian family, I was innocent to these sexual desires of mine and did not realize they were sinful until about 2 years in. By then it was too late, I was addicted to a fetish-porn that was easily accessible online even with a content filter my parents set up. Being a fetish, I was too embarrassed to talk to anyone about it for years until I finally found someone to talk to just a few months ago.

    Now here's my current situation. Since I attend a Christian college, I tend to get caught up in the Christian bubble while living there. When I came back for Winter break, I immediately went back into my old habits and this time, even more. One bad day I was just really depressed and needed to feel good right then. I lost all self control and gave myself a blow job with a syringe.

    I honestly cannot believe I even wrote that right now. I am still in self-denial. I was so innocent to the dangers of unprotected sex of any kind that I didn't realize the implications until it was too late. Over the last 5 days I have had regret, shame, embarrassment, and sadness build up inside me like nothing I've ever felt before. I literally feel like I am truly alone for the first time in my life, because the sad part is that I think I may have given myself an STD!

    I'm extremely scared right now. Scared that my parents will find out before I tell them, and I'm ever more scared to tell them myself. I need relief from this suffering and for some reason I don't think there is any chance that God will decide to heal my STD. I know God has some kind of plan with this, but there is no easy way out.

    I need prayer for comfort during confrontations, healing from these sexual things that are destroying me, and the discipline to stay away from these things for good.

  • TristanTristan January 19

    I don't know how you could get an STD doing solo sex, but as for the lusts that compel you do to these things you'd rather not do, Jesus can deliver you of them: Walk in the Spirit and you will not fulfill the lust of the flesh (Gal. 5:16). Jesus delivered me of those lusts, yet I am no more important to God than you are. Take this verse very seriously, please. God bless you.

  • SuricouRavenSuricouRaven January 20

    "I lost all self control and gave myself a blow job with a syringe."
    The mechanics of this elude me.

  • eastcoasteastcoast January 20

    I'm guessing he's employing the suction action of appropriately gauged plastic syringes sans needle. Maybe left over from their jello shooters.

    This guy needs to talk to his dad about getting laid, SOON. If he was ignorant of the dangers of unprotected sex, we might assume he was homeschooled. If he got an STD from his syringe, that is a good lesson in not sharing needles!

    I pray that you get brave, friend. Cut off the internet connection and learn how to go on a date. Don't be afraid, you'll be fine.. give it all to God and think about that verse that Tristan quoted. Please excuse my levity.

  • SuricouRavenSuricouRaven January 20

    That'd have to be one really big syringe, or one really underendowed ImperfectHuman.

  • eastcoasteastcoast January 21

    Look up Jello shots... http://www.ez-squeeze.com/ez-inject-syringes-c-6 . At least he didn't get it stuck in the pool intake like that one guy: http://www.snopes.com/risque/penile/pool.asp

  • SuricouRavenSuricouRaven January 21

    That's still got to be far too tight a fit - and given the claimed five years of porn, he has to know what a blowjob is. But then, he also thinks you can get an STI off a (presumably clean) syringe.

    Unless...Impefect? Would this STI happen to take the form of a reddish rash with a prominant outline? If so, congratulations, you just discovered that bathing your genitals in jelly is the way to a fungal infection. Get some over-the-counter antifungal creme, it'll clear up in a week with that.

    A more likely theory though is that he is just another lying troll, making up an excessively kinky story in order to laugh at us trying to analyse it. If so, very well done. You made a story that only only provokes response, but which we honestly can't tell if genuine or not. I give you four out of five troll points.

  • eastcoasteastcoast January 22

    All hail the troll

  • SuricouRavenSuricouRaven January 22

    Indeed. There is a fine art to trolling. Anyone can just come to a forum like this and post porn, and that is indeed satisfying - but also short lived, and uninspired. A true artist of a troll can post something that will incite others to flame or to act like idiots themselves, and pull this off without the victims even realising that was the intent all along.

    One of my favorite troll posts was http://www.photobasement.com/wp-content/uploads/2008/07/furryhomeschool.jpg

    It's a hoax - the perpetuator actually admitted it - but what a hoax. Just look at all the ways something like that can incite a reaction, all the levels within it:

    - Firstly, it's about child-raising and posted to a homeschooling group. Few places would have such a hair-trigger for oppinionated advice! Even outside of the target community, admitting to poor child-raising will make emotions run high.
    - It uses furry, not just a source of drama but also something obscure enough to the targets that they may be compelled to google it and get sucked into research, which then compells a response.
    - Better still, it's confusing enough that the responders will all have different interpretations to fight about.
    - The character in the troll is crazy, but not to crazy as to be completly unbelieveable. The post has just enough plausibility that people will treat it as real, even if they have some doubt. Just like our own ImperfectHuman.
    - The plausibility is further amplified by playing to a stereotype, though this is slightly lessened by using a fairly obscure stereotype. Everyone knows the Angry Atheist, the Perverted Porn Viewer and the Crazy Fundamentalist - but the Weirdly Religious Furry isn't one that will find such wide recognition outside of the furry community.

    And then to see the reaction... http://www.photobasement.com/my-son-hates-being-homeschooled/

    All that from one hoax post, and that isn't even in the target community. An achievement like that is no mere troll, that is an artisan of trolldom. Five out of five troll points easily.

    ImperfectHuman is good, but can he match such perfection? I've done so once or twice, but it is a rare achievement.

  • eastcoasteastcoast January 22

    Funny one... "Ma, I don't wanna learn about furries..." Good mix of all types of responses, some bought it all, some just commented on the general subject without buying the OP. One person pointed out the OP's user name, which I then looked up and as he said, it proves that its a joke. Defenestrate_me... now! Thanks. I hope the OP on this thread isn't offended if he is sincere.

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